0:22 VERSE 1
After sex, we still prayed for the lord's wishes
I know the lord witnessed what we did in the kitchen
I swear to god I didn't mean to be sinning
When I saw her standing there with her hands full of dishes
If you ask me? I haven't asked for forgiveness
They say that sin traps you like a prison well but
I'm still feelin free - are my feelings just mistooken?
Or we did nothin wrong - maybe foolish but not crooked
I pray that my girl feels loved and not used
What we did in the pool was love not abuse
But I know that my heart does not love the truth
May be hidin from the light like a moth that's confused
My conscience isn't pricked by what I did with my (time)
Condemnation doesn't stick - am I losing my mind?
I don't mind - maybe I could ride around like it's fine
But my girl has a baby and signs say that it's mine
1:06
She texted during lunch, said she had something to say
I said [baby, can you wait? I got a lot here on my plate]
But she said she really needed me, I called her back
And I heard her say, [baby I think I'm late.]
1:27 VERSE 2
I know god can use this
The same way that Judas kissed Christ
And turned him to a movement
of the lords ways, i consider me a student
Bs on my card least I'm not totally stupid
But my girl missed her period
So that's the answer to the jokers out there: this is why it's so serious
Only 21, twenties barely have begun
Now a mother and a wife is what she's going to become
Like she's staring in a gun and I feel it in my gut
Evry life is a blessing - whether daughter or a son
but I never planned to bring a child into such a crunch
When she says she might miscarry, I don't even lose my lunch
.Oh God, forgive my iniquity
Viewing life like an undesired sentencing
It's not right but I feel so confused
[My girl might lose our baby, I don't know what I should do]
1:06
She texted me at home, she was feeling very sick
I said [baby, what's going on? I can be there very quick]
She said she'd be all right, but she was acting very strange
And I heard her say, [the baby might not be OK]
1:27 VERSE 3
Now I'm feeling some complex emotions
Half wanting to run, half filled with devotion
Half so afraid, half ready to begin
Wasn't thinking of proposing - now we're dealing with a kid
What are we to do? I've got work, you've got school
But a single mother's life can be so cruel
And I won't ever let them see you that way
I won't let them see you even for a second as a shame
So I'm browsing eBay for a wedding ring
Getting ready to settle down and give her everything
We had other plans - but I'm a man, I won't run away
Baby, I promise - I'll give you everything
Started to plan for the wedding we would have
So young, but maybe we could make something to last
One last text - 7 words to the brain
It's a miscarriage. I love you. J.
OUTRO CHORUS
She texted late at night, said she'd been hurtin all day
And her stomach felt wrong, is the baby still OK?
She said she really needed me, I called her right then
We were together the minute that it ended
phone call outro
credits
from Much Love.,
released November 30, 2012
Rapping, mixing, mastering by jason chu
Additional engineering by Andy Chian Chen
Songwriter and producer CRFT celebrates his spirituality and family on this thoughtful debut LP, featuring Blu, nobigdyl, and more. Bandcamp New & Notable May 10, 2022