Lately, life has been a little bit crazy
If you ever broken up you know exactly what I'm sayin'
Flippin out, wipin out, messin up, stress had a brother about to go super Saiyan.
When I’m out of patience, I don't handle pressure well
Dad was super chill, but under pressure he would yell
The immigrant story, family went through hell, now I'm here to bring them glory through the stories that I tell
I do this for my fam, mom and dad, I love ya
Losin touch with Tori, I'm not a goood, brother
Stayin focused, don't have the time to spare
Sorry to my sister, when I make it, you'll be there
But I might never make it, even if I put in time
I'm not the greatest, I just need to speak my mind, and see my story cut through all the lies that I’ve been buyin
Troubled thoughts at night, but that's when I get inspired
Would you help me get off my knees
Gotta get off my knees, I gotta get off my knees
I got the devil at my door
He ain't gonna hold me back, ain't gon hold me back
Will I make it? Man, I don’t know if I’m a legend bein written or amateur tryna go pro
Every time I write a song, I’m feelin good, then I hear my voice recorded - that take was so-so
Wanted to write a legend like the Hobbit but the odds against me even though I graduated college,
the product of generations of scholars, not tryna kick no knowledge, I’m just here to give you something that helped me through all my problems
Give you something that your eyes can’t see
But sometimes I wonder if you see in me or ID some part of me that speaks truly
I’m tempted to give in and just let things be.
I tried that. It's cool, but that's not me.
And not me is somethin that I will not be.
What you see - the pain the struggle the fam, the hustle the music the lyrics - it’s all part of the plan
Bad habits and flaws? man I been through it all, lost some good friends ‘cause I was too selfish to call
Oh Lord, I’m tryna go hard, but oh God old habits, they die hard
These doubts are crushin my whole heart, I’m tryna hold on to go on,
so I say
I flew to college on a scholarship
But I wouldn't exactly call that a power trip
Cuz there's not a lot of love if you're academic
If you're Chinese and rap then it's probably a gimmick
Ain't another rapper out here that I'm tryna mimic
I do this for my art, I put my stories on the canvas, not an entertainer, I'm not here to play a role
I'm just here to give you all a piece of my, soul
released February 7, 2014
Produced by Chucky Kim
Additional vocals by Andrue Quiroz, Gadi Rouache, Delonte Gholston