Shy at first, now I'm bright and new
When I saw your light, I spent the night with you
Will you push me away, or draw me closer to you?
Will you shine with me, if I shine for you?
Verse 1
I started rapping attracted to all the action
Never thought I'd ever have a chance to fashion my own lane
Fascinated by the way these words portrayed a mind state,
My motivation was passion, captivated by dropouts with more eloquence than my graduation speakers
I know it sounds odd… but this Chinese kid played rap and heard God//
See Jason up late hearin Eminem songs, then rappin them back on the back of the bus
I packed my bookbag with my calculus books, plus the latest Jigga disses to Nas
See Jason walkin round in his mom and dad's house, rapping to his toys, action figures and cards
Fast forward, ten years later, see him on stage in LA, three hundred younger kids in the house, wow
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Shy at first, now I'm bright and new
When I saw your light, I spent the night with you
Will you push me away, or draw me closer to you?
Will you shine with me, if I shine for you?
Verse 2
Learned to speak from my heart with the art in this wrist
My pen used to itch til my fingers twitched, it wrote words on the pad til my blisters split,
I didn't feel it like a hypnotist
Ignored my younger sister, I was so selfish
Fought with mom and dad, I was a little prick
Plus a little self-hatred, I was hypocrite
Never kissed a girl, I was way too timid
But evry word that I wrote, man, it lifted this, turned pissed pessimist to artistic bliss
Learned to spit raps like unwrapping gifts, plus my attitude turned activist
I activated my mission, learned to act as if I wasn't the only person that mattered
Fast forward, five years later, now I'm spitting in Beijing, three hundred kids listening, wow
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Verse 3
Imma end this track real honest, sometimes I rap cuz I love to see your comments
Sometimes I want to blow my money on designers, product of consumerism plus years in college
So I need you to shine with me
Cuz if I don't rhyme for you, there's no rhymes in me
That's the reason I see for this season in life
I'm writin words to give you somethin to believe in//
I'ma keep on writin trustin that you're readin
keep on rappin trusting that you hear it
I'ma keep on living just so you can see what it looks like for a broken young man to find freedom
If I'm tellin lies, damn right I'mma eat em
I'll swallow mean bullets from Marine peacekeepers
Crucified on the beach during shark week season
Screamin as I lie there bleedin
If my country shuts me up, I will commit treason
If I die, cut the words out my lungs, and keep em in a jar with vinegar and embalming ether
A suicide bomb plus the calm of Jesus
Plus the karma of Edward Snowden, Imma tell the truth even if it earns me no friends
Fast forward to today, I'm spittin in LA, and I need my words to leave you weeping, unh
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credits
from Millennial,
released February 7, 2014
Produced by Elyon Beats
Additional vocals by Claudeo